Day 1 : grounded for a year
Today i woke up at 8:51am.. couldn't sleep after that cos i kept wondering about how fat i was for wanting to eat cake.... felt really bad.. sigh..
couldn't sleep very well last night.. had just gotten grounded for going to dandy.. mum told.. she full on ratted on me! she took me there and told dad everything! she even told my big brother that i had a bellybutton piercing and also that i was getting 4 piercings on the ears yesterday.. couldn't sleep cos i got the piercings on both ears. so had to sleep face up. and whenever i subconsciously rolled to the side.. it hurts a lot so i have to sleep face up ==" not too bad though :P
woke up.. turned on the computer and watched Rookies the movie :P its too sappy for my taste these days.. loved the drama and shiz but yeah :/ prob outgrown it xD
after that i watched Heroes and finished season 4.. on to the last season (nooo!!)
after that i started getting hungry and as soon as i get off my chair my mum calls me.. wtf annoying hag. i told her later to make me something to eat. which was my only meal for the whole day. since i was pretty depressed.. and who can blame me?! i got grounded for a whole fucking year for disobeying my dad once! yeah great and as soon ass holidays started. you have no idea how sad and frustrated i am. all my plans all out the window just cos my mum couldn't lie. and not even! she insisted on taking me then ratted on me. i don't understand!! and she blames it on me for going there in the first place! i don't get it! only once i've defied him. and i have to get such a harsh punishment. i am so unhappy and no one can save me from this. not even my close friends. so insensitive.. even when i am always there for them. they are never there for me. or just can't seem to be good at cheering me up...at all.. not even jdramas can pick me up from this hellhole.. but ima pretend to stay strong. and block out all these feelings from now on.. since nothing will change.. i will always be in this situation until next year. so i must get used to this sadness so then i can block it out and to make it never let me cry again :)must numb this sadness must numb this sadness must numb this sadness...i will be fine. i just have to be me ... or to put this fake mask on.
i believe.. it's not wrong to starve. it actually makes me feel better..kind of xD cos i can see that i look cuter xD so all good for me hehe xP
what the hell am i supposed to do for 2 weeks i wonder? hmmmmm...

i have new best friends :3 they aren't perfect but i love everything about them. Their names are; Jean, Omar and Wez (he is not exactly new....but he's still one of my bestest friends :3) BUT WEZ IF YOU READ THIS DON'T GET BIG HEADED YOU MOTHER FUCKER love you <3
i finally have a girl best friend x3 i am super happy :D

JEAN is SUPER hot! Even though she says she's not .. why does all them horny boys love you baby? x3 cos you're so fucking hot hehe ^^ And you have a great personality! never forget that i love everything about you~
OMAR even though you are on the slow side (not kinda you ARE xD) you are the bestest friend ever! And i'm never letting you go x3 and i love how you talk to me about stupid shit x3 from the first time we ever talked you made me LAUGH OUT LOUD which i have not done for so so long x3 and i also LOVE how you're block x3 love you buddy

WEZ you are probably the only one that can handle my verbal abuse against you every single day! you are the best pal :] you are just fucking awesome dare i say :S but yea x3 GET OVER IT! hahaha xDDD we've been through so much shit :3 but i'm glad i don't get super grumpy when i have my periods HAHAHAA! ...it was a joke....kind of.. LOL! i love your loyalty and just the way you are :3

I got in a fight with ilynn in the holidays...because of DBSK and we finally declared that we're not friends anymore...and the girl jane that would hang with us doesn;t even talk to me anymore LOL! but whatevs it wasn't like they treated me well anyways xDD if they are reading this then...i'd like to say, i'm happier without you :] although you have isolated me. i don't give a fuck :3 because i have better friends that are worth way more then you guys ever meant to me :D so yea.. have a nice fucking life yea? cos i don't give a shit hehe ^^

school is annoying as hell...people there annoys the shit out of me too...stuck up bitches ...die :) hrmm..exams up coming up soon..stressful..school sucks shit....okay..some people are alright at school...hardly any..

love life...hrmm..i think my best friend (who is a guy) LOVES me =.=" such betrayal of trust.. so fucking clingy...always having to hang out with me...so fucking annoying..and people at school...are fucking scared of me..CMON MANG! im only likee..152 cms... guys refer to me as satan...sighh..gotta love it! LOLnot xP

boring boring boring....

love life........and this best friend really loves to burden me and has no sense of respect for me..dumshit..IM NOT GONNA FEEL BAD FOR YOU JUST COZ YOU GIVE ME DEPRESSED LOOKS YOU DUMFUCK! just makes me even more pissed off..i really dont need this shit..

and what's with all the guys treating me like shit? i KNOW im better looking then most of the girls in our year level you blind bitches..go die..

so moody..aghh...maybe coz i have my period..all this fucking stress building up..

FMLFMLFMLFMLFMLFML

FORMALFORMAL

formal.. was on the 13th of july x3 since i am in year 10 this is the first time i had a formal xDD so my mum went all out LOLL :P

items bought for the formal:
Dress: $60
Shoes: $82 (diana ferrari Y>wTOTAL: $187 altogether.. and hardly anyone complimented me =__=" darn xDD

but i already know that i looked really good hehe (conceited/arrogant much? xD)

some pics from the formal teehee ^^ and at home heh heh >w

hi! x]

im bored...

these days i've been obsessed with kpop xPP

Like...

fire- 2NE1

over the rainbow (rock ver.)- trax

again and again- 2pm

it's you- SUPER JUNIOR

sorry sorry- SUPER JUNIOR (still xDD)
heard of sorry sorry cover by royal pirates? it's FUCKING AWESOME =DD

lollipop- Big Bang ft. 2NE1

죽어있는 것 (Dead At Heart)- SUPER JUNIOR

Monster- SUPER JUNIOR

believe- SUPERJUNIOR

SUPERJUNIOR EQUALS <3>w< my faves are:

1. siwon&&donghae
2. yesung&&sungmin
3. eunhyuk&&hangeng
4. ryeowook&&kyuhyun
5. shindong&&leeteuk
6. kangin&&heechul&&kibum

yup yup ^^ i love their songs x33 ...but some of the mv's lack a bit of something.. oh! and also!! they kinda have a crap stylist xDDD the stylists should make them wear clothes that actually go for them.. lol.. and some of their hair do's suck too.. in it's you. kim kibum's hair was combed back! O>O LOL! it didnt look good =.="
And.. sungmin's clothes and hair.. when he moved it look like a bowl cut?! and it was really thick too >.<" and his clothes were baggy too...it looked a bit like he was a HOBO!? LOLL heechul looked pretty good in that mv >//w//< style="color: rgb(255, 153, 0);">kang in...he doesn't seem very significant in the mv.. although i can hear him..it's likee he doesnt really leave an impression..hrrmmmmmm..kyuhyun didnt leave an impression on me either.. i guess that's about it about my comments about it's you mv

about the new hana yori dango korean ver.

the story line is pretty much the same except in the korean her family owns a dry cleaning service which leads to how she got in the school.. she was bringing the dry cleaning to this dude in Shinhwa High School which is pretty much a high school for rich kids and only accepts kids whose parent's are wealthy and high in the heirarchy and the owner on Shinhwa High School is the famous Shinhwa Group. they are the most wealithiest and successful group in all of korea and owns a School x] everyone would kill to get into that school .. but they don't know that in their school is the terrifying but popular Flower four F4 . it consists of 4 men that attend the college that have great reputations in the whole of Korea and is well known. The leader of F4 is Gu Jun Pyo the successor of The Shinhwa Group . because of this everyone in the school kisses his ass.. and so the main protagonist Jan di .. comes along and saves this guy while giving his dry cleaning and saves him..Shinhwa High School accepts her in because of all the press and needed to stop the media and stuff .. so then she started to attend the school and met with Gu Jun Pyo in sticky situations and she gets bullied..and gets saved by her prince..who is one of F4.. and then Jun Pyo starts falling for her.. and that's when she get annoyi-- I MEAN that's when their love starts off......and yeaa x]

woops. i got carried away xDD THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEK EACHOTHER HANA YORI DANGO IS~~~~
the names.. METEOR GARDEN(TAIWANESE). HANA YORI DANGO(JAP). HANA YORI DANGO/BOYS OVER FLOWERS(KOREAN) ima call it boys over flowers so i dont get confuzzled xPP
their focus in the background.. meteor garden, it is a normal school..but they are still rich.....but kinda looks pov xDD. hana yori dango, they kinda put it out there that he is rich buuuttt..... just not enough it was just.. Rich. didn't show enough luxury and stuff.. boys over flowers, it showed that they were $RRIIIICCHHHH$ everything!! especially they show the house man that was a big drive way >__<>the way they enter the school...meteor garden, she was always there it seems. hana yori dango, cant remember xPP. boys over flowers, she is accepted coz she saved a guys life in the school.
The similarities..
THEY ALL UGLAY full stop (all as in the female protagonist)
the storyline-ish

okay and now the OST's the i love the most from the drama Boys Over Flowers
-Paradise (main theme)- T-max
-Stand by me- Shinee
-Because i'm stupid- SS501

oh gosh so bored =="

-eating banana
-bored
-listening to fire-2ne1

Labels: boys over flowers, hana yori dango, kpop. blog. bored, meteor garden, songs

GUESS WHAT!?!?
i have found my 3rd prince >w< teehee!
lo i haven't found him recently but ....I'VE FOUND HIM!!!!!
his so hott~~~~~~~~~~~~>w<
actually it's my friends friend :D:D
anyway thats too much information >w<
so ima shutup now before i ramble on xDD
btw..i love my lovely CUPCAKE ;P you know who you are..or you should?? xD
bye bye~~
PPL! BUY SUPER JUNIOR'S 3RD ALBUM KAY :D?! IT'S SUPER HOTNESS X3

Labels: prince

HI :D LONG TIME NO BLOGGY :D:D

Hey guys! not like anyone is reading wahaha! xD but i havent blogged for ages xD

anyways i've been busy living xP yup! ^^
OKAY! i'll tell you things that impacted me these days x] coz im bored and i just wanna talk about myself (girls..pfft) haha

first of all, I MET MY PRINCE!!!!! and because ..it's me i usually go for asians and (im sorry to all sri lankans and indians) i always bagged out curries and stuff >.> and i would really hate to date a curry or whatever but just one mere encounter changed my impressions of them!!
It all started before valentines (uh huh *nods*) i went to go buy chocolates because SOME people forced me into/agreed to themselves that i was their valentine so i went and bought them chocolate just in case they whinge and all (xDD) and i went to go buy them and the one that i wanted to buy was a LINDT block of chocolate but it was too high (because im short TT^TT) and i was distressed and this random guy helped me get it and while i was on my tippy toes i went to look at this nice person to say thanks which came out like this:
shana: THANK Y-- *pause*
O.O -> O//.//O <----SHANA
seriously!!!!!!!!!
i felt like my heart stopped..i didnt breath and froze ..like stone xO
his seductive big round yet sharp eyes, his dark but beautiful skin you could see his face so clearly his hair so luxurious that you would want to touch and caress *nose bleed* his beautiful lips that's not chipped ..absolutely beautiful ..like he was an angel (btw..after that happened i really rthought he looked like an angel..>.>) i fell in love at first sight..which totally contradicts my morals and belief..because just looking at someone you can definitely not fall in love just because of his face and thought those people were total idiots.........i guess i am one huh? xD but i was so swooned by this guy..and EVEN BETTER ..HE WAS SRI LANKAN OR INDIAN!!!!!!!
my preference/ideal bf is a hot asian guy with great personality and awesome hair :DD
pfft! sif that would happen because i'm not particularly pretty or standing outish xDD im just really ordinary ><" but yeahhh xD girls tend to have high expectations even if theyre not so hot WAHAHA!
..anyways, then i quickly looked at the chocolate and said thank you very quietly..and when i looked back at him he had already turned his back and started walking i was like..Q>Q
WAHAHA! xD yup thats how it was ><" after that i could not forget the glimpse i had of him. and never will forget him x] i really....l-l-l-l-LOVED HIM xO

and i told all my friends and theyre like YEAA!! YOU'LL DEF MEET HIM AGAIN! and i was like YEAA I DEF WILL!! SO I SHALL WAIT AT THIS SUPERMARKET FOR HIM AND TRY TO TALK TO HIM AND EVERYTHING ..but i know in my heart that .its impossible to ever see him again..but i didnt think about it ..so on i went telling everyone my love of my life..but you know i just remembered when i caught the glimpse of him our faces were quite close..AND I HAD TOMATO SAUCE ON ME CHIN!!!!!!!!! when i went back in the car and pulled out the mirror i was like...O.O" ..SHIIIITTTTT!!!!!!!! he saw it he saw it he saw it he saw it he saw it he saw it he saw it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HE SAW IT!!! i felt really crap...but you know..i've always knew that i was always bad luck in love xD
but yeaaa....after all this happened..i liked him for more than 2 weeks ..i couldnt stop thinking about him and what he was like if he was a really nice person..and i would wanna date him and if ever a girl tries something on him i'll beat the shiat out of her :DD ..but yea ..i never got to see him again........and so i decided i'll get over him which was pretty hard because i felt like i really LOVED him ><" oh wells guys come and go anyways xDD not like i've experienced it at all xDD

second, school kinda sucks for me *laughs nervously*
yup this new girl came to our year level..i've known her from ages ago..my friends friend xD at first she was okay and outgoing and pretty cool (btw our first meeting) but then she started to whack me hard and stuff at first i didnt care but she kept pulling me really violently ><" and stuff which i really didnt like and yea xD
so she came to my school this year and i thought that it was okay and started to talk to her before she started her new high school life at my school..
she seemed pretty okay and stuff..and we started getting along at school..she was funny with her lame jokes and she sometimes hung with me which i dont mind coz she's pretty cool..and then when i was clinging with my guy friend she grabbed my face and kinda slammed my head on the locker...which hurt ><" but i laughed it off when she apologised and ruffled my hair furiously (which i really haatteee) and i just laughed it off and left..
THEN when i was with my friend..in the toilets we were talking and she suddenly came out of the cubicle and started patting my head and i was like....O__O WTFFF!!!!!! and went to wash my hair and dried it on the dryer..and she came to me in front of my friends: SHANA!..YOUR AN IDIOT YOUR A REAL IDIOT..SERIOUSLY YOUR SUCH AN IDIOT and so on...on and on and on..and my friends didnt say anything and tried to change the subject but she kept on screaming how much of an idiot i am and i got pissed off and said ..yeaahh..you like said that 100 times already..and as i was walking out of the toilet she said..AND I WILL KEEP SAYING IT! and i saw a group of friends that i thought were my "friends" and so i thought i found a little bit of salvation or something in them and as i was approaching them they walked off..and i was already at a pissed of state and bursted out WTH MAN! JUST COZ I COME HERE YOU LEAVE!! and was tearing and left and i realised the girl was followed me out of the toilet and said OOOO REJECTED!!!!! really loud......i felt really shit ahahahaha...>.> and went under the dryer to dry my tears hoping that would dry them xDD
after that i didnt like those group of girls that walked off when i approached them...they are popular............but i was once their best friends..every one of them we all had history..but all was gone and totally forgot about me......and one girl that was my best bestest friend was one of them and i really hated them because it's like they totally forgot that we were friends i felt a little betrayed..i guess i never really got over our close friendship..i really treasured her and our friendship. also with her current best friend..i like them i really do they are great..but it was my that screwed everything up so i guess they can never forgive me Q~Q
oh well..i always think how to change it but i cant.. ><"
ANYWAYS! yess...so that girl asked to borrow one of my best guy friends jumper..i was really pissed off and felt betrayed for some reason ><" and later he comes to wait for me after school like usual with my other best guy friend (btw i have 2 best friends that are both guys) were waiting after school for me and i was clearly pissed off and it was verrrryyyy awkward but i didnt care and i was waiting for them to leave because usually when guys feel awkward they leave well atleast all the guys i know.. and so they stayed and kept asking what was wrong but never gave them any eye contact.. but they stood silent and stayed and looked at me with concern..or atleast kinda wanted to know xD
later the other best friend had to go so it was with my best friend that left the girl borrow his jumper and asked me what was wrong and i just left and started to tear and then later realised he was following me behind and then told him..and left me alone..which made me bolt into tears and everything........
yeaaahh xD
it was all because of the new girl...i really dont like her.but the thing is that i dont regret backing her up when some girls that already knew her tell the other girls that didnt know her to stay away from her but to see for yourself if she's a good girl or not. and also when i tried to be friends with her x] i dont regret trying to be her friend x] weirdly xDD ..

the next day i didnt wanna even look at those girls or that new girl and the most popular girl in the group of girls was tearing and unconsciously asked her why she was sad and was curious.... but then her friend took her away xD pheww..i was on the verge for being a useless person..ACTUALLY THINKING ABOUT IT I THINK IM ALREADY A USELESS PERSON xO dammit! ><"

ah wells..i should just forget about them..i already had a good cry and time to move on x]

third, i went to chinese church :D it was pretty okay x] and i was with my super cute friend and looked at her phone coz i was bored (lolol) and at the back was photo plus pics of random ppl.. and i someone caught my attention ..which was this really hot guy!!! he was super hot i was like ....O//__//O"" ahahaha! serious! no joke!!!! xD
then she told me his name was STEVEN ..and i was likee xO me like :D
so he secretly became my new prince >//w//< hehe
not only the looks but his personality is very nice its only natural that alot of girls would want him..but secretly admiring is enough for me >w< he also called me twice :D the first time it went for 22 mins and 40 secs.....yes i remembered it SO WHAT!? xDD yeaa..second it wasnt very long coz there was nothing to talk about hahaha! but his a nice person and definitely deserves someone prettier and better personality then me so i already gave up xDD
oh wells..short love still feels sweet..although it was short xD

hmm..todayy..i went to knox :D it was funn i was with my bros gf and her sis her sis and i are pretty tight and we get along..at first i thought she looked mean or just one of those super popular girls that exclude everyone..but instead she was the opposite xD she's really awesome and i love her smile she also has her own problems but she still smiles i think she is a really good girl x] she bought me mousse :D and i knocked over a pair of glasses and i told her to pick it up and she did xD just for fun but she did it and then i felt bad ><" oops! never gonna demand that again..just thinking about that makes me feel bad xD

hmm.. that was pretty much xDD

thanks for reading..if you did read up to all the way here xD im sorry im a pretty boring person btw xD okay im talking wayyy too much now..btw i took more than 2 hours typing this..sad much? xDD

anywayyssss..take care :D

<3<3 shana~

Labels: days, friendship problems, long blog, love, prince, school days